Do you know what I did last evening? I had a great time. I made connections. And I made a confession. Although, for me to say that I made a confession is sort of- what do you call it- ridiculous. Ridiculous because I am a house whose windows stand gaping and naked. Depending on the lighting, this can be good and it can be bad as well.
So, where to begin? I had a great conversation with a really cool chick. You may be thinking this is no big deal. I’m sure lots of you have great conversations with other cool chicks all the time. It’s just that I don’t. Now that I may have pissed off all my really cool friends, with whom I have great conversations ALL THE TIME, I should probably elaborate. I DO NOT give out my number to strangers. I talk to strangers all the time through my job, but I can’t think of a single time when I have handed out my phone number to a person I’ve never met in person first. But this time I did. And I don’t really know why I did. Ordinarily I would have tucked tail and gone into hiding, because- HELLO S-T-R-A-N-G-E-R spells danger. Duh. But my gut said, “Do it.” And, what do you know, my gut was right on. (For this, I treated my gut with a delicious meal- in a restaurant. Oh yes I did. But that was tonight and not last night.)
I talked to ZenMommy while I was on my way to a photo session with a local Christian group. The members of said group happen to be family of mine. And this driving and talking led to a confessional of sorts about some soul searching I’ve been doing. I’m looking for peace. I’m looking for comfort. I’m looking for myself. And, while my journey for myself is not so much a secret, my struggle with ideas about religion, God, Christianity are not much talked about. Mostly because this subject overwhelms me. It forces me to ask questions about myself that I’m not sure I can answer. Or, maybe more accurately, I’m not sure I want to answer. Fear. I’m full of it, among other things.
Lastly, I met up with the group and had an amazing shoot. More importantly, I felt like I was at home. And maybe a little closer to peace.
Being a little closer to peace sounds like a wonderful thing.
And I never give out my phone number, either. Truth be told, I’m kind of afraid of the phone.
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Amber, stepping out of my comfort zone has proven to be VERY rewarding for me recently…and the peace, when I can taste a bit of it, is overwhelmingly amazing.
Jennifer- it’s wild how sometimes two people connect across miles and can feel like instant friends. Thanks for taking the risk and sharing your number with me. I think you are pretty frickin’ awesome.
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Isn’t it crazy! I’m happy we talked and I think you’re pretty frickin awesome yourself! Hope you start feeling better soon=)
This comment is for your newest post, “18.” For some reason, it wouldn’t link to a comment thingy on that post. So anyway, hoo-ray for reaching this milestone!
My little boy is about a year older than yours. I remember the suckage of having a 9lbs baby stuffed into my 5 ft, 110 lbs frame, I feel your pain. It was last summer when everyone started pushing the potty training and big boy cups. He didn’t get underwear until his second birthday (he didn’t wear it until March), and he still drinks out of a sippy cup. He thinks a big boy cup is one with a lid and a straw (like you get at a restaurant). So, I say screw what everyone else says you should be doing and do what feels right. He’ll be fine.
PS I will say that it’s easier to potty train when its warm, and he can run around in his underwear. Also, Nate hated the potty chair. It was a waste of $20, he never even used it, just one of those seats that fits over the toilet.
Long time-no hear from you!!! Hope you’re doing well!
I wonder what’s up with the comment linkage? Hmmmmm….
At any rate, I picked him up one of those seats that fits over the potty. Even if he would have used the other actual potty chair kind- the idea of cleaning out whatever he might unload just grossed me out!
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